This is a fear that I've always had... and the more I think about it, the deeper and deeper I get into a state of mental chaos and confusion. What if multiple people ask for the same thing? What if someone else prays for your beloved too? It's entirely possible isn't it? What if you pray for someone you love... and someone else prays for you in another corner of the world? Dua changes Qadr doesn't it? What happens when you have all these cross conflicting Dua's? Do they cancel each other out? Perhaps it takes two people to pray for each other for it to come true? At times, I really don't know. I'd love to know what you think. Please comment below, and let me know of your thoughts. Perhaps we can make sense of this chaos.
When your prayers aren’t immediately fulfilled,
All kinds of thoughts and distractions come to your mind.
To be swayed by these thoughts is to either be naïve,
Or it could be simply because of the fear of never getting what you want.
The heart and the way it functions are both fascinating.
At times it is stronger than anything, and at other times it is equally as weak.
It gets scared easily.
They say what do you have to fear, when in love?
But love itself comes with fear.
Those who attain it become complete,
And those who lose in love become destroyed.
We all fear our own destruction.
There is someone that I love more than anything…
My beloved is all that I pray for.
But I fear what if there is someone out there that also prays for me?
What if I’m unaware of someone’s love for me?
Oh dearest stranger, do not ask your Lord for me.
I have forgone all rights over myself, and have given myself to my beloved.
I fear that my prayers will collide with your prayers.
Please do not pray for me… I will not be able to be yours.
Somewhere out there in the universe is probably someone else
Who also prays for the one I’ve given myself over to…
The one whose mornings are my own,
The one whose nights are are mine…
The one I see everywhere I look with my eyes open,
And the only one I see as my destination with my eyes closed.
I fear that there is someone who also prays for my beloved.
I wonder if prayers collide with one another, which one gets accepted first?
Perhaps those prayers return without even reaching the heavens.
This fear often keeps me up at night.
That is why my love, it isn’t enough for just me to pray for you,
And for you to hope for the best… even if I pray with all I’ve got.
Perhaps my prayers are equally dependent on yours.
Perhaps even if my own prayer collides with another and returns back to me,
It is your prayer that is meant to reach the heavens instead.
Do these fears not keep you up at night as well?
Do these thoughts not trouble you as well?
Just once, I want you to try praying for us to be together.
Try and put your desires into words.
I pray that every prayer of yours is fulfilled….
Just once… let your eyes become numb in asking for us to be one.
Duayien jab fauri taur per qubool na hon,
Tau dil mien ajeeb ajeeb khayal aur tarhan tarhan ke waswasay atay hain.
Khayalon mien behek jaane ko insan ki nadaani kehlo,
ya mangi hui naimaton ka na milne ka dar.
Ajeeb hai ye dil aur is dil ki kehfiyat...
Jitna mazboot hai, kabhi kabhi uthna hi kamzor bhi hojata hai.
Dar jata hai asaani se...
Kehte hain ke pyar kia tau darna kia...
Magar ek ajeeb sa dar hi hai ye muhabbat.
Mil jaye tau abad kar de...
Chin jaye tau barbadh.
Aur barbaadh kaun hona chahta hai?
Main kisi ko be-intiha chahta houn,
Aur duaon mien usi ko mangta houn...
Mujhe dar hai ke shayad mujhe bhi koi mangta hoga.
Mere ilm mien na ho, aur mujhe bhi koi chahta hoga.
Apne rab se na maang mujhe oh be-khabar...
Main tau apne ap ko kisi ki amanat maan kar,
Khud par se sare haq kho chuka houn.
Mujhe darr hai ke meri duayien teri duaon se takra na jayien.
Na mang mujhe apne Rab se...
Main tera nahi ho paunga.
Is kainat Mien kahin na kahin...
Koi na koi...
Usay bhi mangta hoga jis per maine apne sare ikhtiyar qurbaan kardiye...
Jis ki subha mien meri subha hai,
Jis ki raat mien meri raat hai
Jo ankhien kholte hi mere samne hoti hai,
Ankhien bandh karoun tau har khuwab mien manzil hoti hai.
Main darta houn ke duaon mien usay bhi koi mangta hoga...
Duayien takra jayien...
Tau na jane pehle kis ki qubool hoti hogi.
Shayad ya takrati hui duayien asmaan se wapis laut athi hongi...
Ye khuaf mujhe boht satate hain.
Isi liyien Kafi nahi hai ke sirf main tumhe mangoun...
Beshak dil aur jaan se hi sahi...
Magar shayad meri duaon ki qubooliyat muntazar hai teri duaon ki...
Meri dua takra kar wapis laaut bhi aye
Tau mujhe yaqeen ke tumhari duayien pohonch jayengi Arsh tak.
Kia ye dar tumhe nahi satatay?
Kia ye waswasay tumhe nahi atay?
Tum bhi kabhi maang kar tau dheko.
Apni chah ko zubaan per la ker tau dheko.
Kash teri har Du'a qubool hojaye,
Tum bhi ek ansu Baha kar tau dheko...